beginning of something new.

every one of us made bad decisions once in our lives. too bad i made a lot. oh well.

i've been pondering on what i have been doing with my life. the choices that i made or should have made. the opportunities i have taken and those i missed. it's heart-breaking. i should have done this, i should have chose that, i would have been like that. the list never ends. 

well, those are all in the past now. if i keep making bad decisions and let opportunities slip over and over again then chances are they will never come back. at the end of the day, it is really up to me. (took me awhile to realize that!)

ms.amsterdam.blogspot.com was my first ever blog. it consist of write ups from my travelling experiences, friends and all things i thought was worth writing. deleting it was one of the biggest mistake i've made. wasn't really thinking when i did it. wasn't thinking straight and just let my emotions take over.

now i have decided to rewrite my stories from my defunct blog here in my new crib. still need to check for copies those but i'll figure it out. i'm planning to at least revive my travel stories. a foreign blogger once told me i shouldn't quit and just continue writing. and i will do just that.

 be happy

something to ponder on...

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hail the queen of procrastination, princess of dullness and bearer of negativity!

those words accurately describes me, but you know what? it gets old. who wants to be that miserable? misery does loves company but only to those who are willing.

i have been in a dark place for a long time now. growing up for me was tough so my defense was to hide myself. built a very sturdy wall around me and stayed in the dark for years. the sad thing there was it locked me up and i can't seem to find my way out. 

in an attempt to turn my life around, i will no longer be known with those words above. 

well yes, i was the queen of procrastination. comes in handy when you need to wake up early in the morning, you know. delay for a few minutes, until eventually end up getting late. i don't want to be the queen anymore. i wanna be more disciplined and responsible.

being dull was safe for me, at least. darker colors was my favorite. probably because i stayed in the dark for too long. but now, no more. it's a wonderful world, you and me should be enjoying all its colors. i wanna be alive, vibrant and bold.

most importantly, i don't want to be the bearer of negativity anymore. negative vibes can drown all of your energy and suck you into a black hole of nothingness. positivity on the other hand can do wonders. to you and those around you. i shall say good bye to negativity,  i will definitely not miss you.

photo from be happy

 my boyfriend keeps on telling me i have such high hopes and dreams yet i don't work towards attaining it. i complain yet i don't change. he's right but this time i want to prove him wrong. i want to show him i a changed person now. and most importantly, i want to do this for my self. to be better, happier me. 


"but if i die tonite, at least i could say i did what i wanted to do. tell me how about you?"

from the song four minutes by madonna featuring justin timberlake